Just starting my fourth week at the office. I am enjoying it so much. And apparently they like me there. One staff member told my husband that she is going to quit if I do.
So out of the blue I find out that being a working mom is something I actually enjoy and that I don't just stay home because I am lazy.
I really have always been 100% on board with being a stay at home Mom. That's where I wanted to be. . . only. But now I realize that it really is a sacrifice to decide to stay home with your kids. I am not lazy after all. I am sacrificing.
Does that make sense? I don't have time to delve into it much deeper. I am a working mom and that work starts in just 45 minutes. The point is that it makes me feel better about myself to find out that I am not just home because I couldn't take the life of the working mother. I am home because I chose to. Now that said, I am trying to decide if I chose to be home everyday. . . or if I am going to keep up this working stuff on a part time basis. As of now I feel a lot of guilt even deciding to work part time because of my toddler. So I am thinking hard about this and for sure want to do what's best.
Here's what I like about my job:
I love talking to people. You all know that. And I do it all day long now. And people are so nice.
I love watching dental procedures. It is so darn interesting. I feel like I could go to dental school in a year or so and be far above the class after seeing all that I do everyday. So far I am extremely comfortable just merely handing the doc instruments. . . but who knows? Maybe eventually it won't seem as hard anymore and I will think, maybe I could actually do some of these procedures I have watched over and over. After dental school of course.
The staff has asked me several times what I am getting out of this new arrangement. I mean I am not getting paid so they wonder what could be in it for me.
Free Training!! No one else would've hired me. I am learning a new school for free!
It reminds me of my Mormon church callings. Choir director, President of the Women's Organization, Piano accompanist, Teacher for young children in the primary, Activities coordinating, Volleyball coach???? All of these I was grossly under qualified for. But they gave me a chance, I felt inadequate but jumped in just because I was asked to do it. I never got really good at anything but Hey, I got way better . I was always grateful for the chance. It's way more fun to work when you aren't getting paid and there is no worries about getting fired. And stay at home mom's just don't usually get growth opportunities falling into their laps so I am grateful.
And so I am currently grateful to work with my husband everyday in a fun office with nice woman and learn how to assist. And Marcus is grateful to be dropped off every morning at the house with the big black dog. He would choose a dog over a mom any day.
Sad. . . . but true.
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